So after much time thinking about it, the one thing in my life that I can say has constantly kept me happy and relieved stress (sometimes causing more, haha), is playing halo 3 online. I made the decision that I want to become a pro gamer. The idea used to sound preposterous, but now more than ever, I kinda have a general idea of who i am. I am a gamer. I'll never be able to escape the excitement that I feel when there's a controller in my hand. Making my character move to my psychotic whims. Forcing him into battle and doing my best to keep him alive. For now, i can only dream of it. I can't even get started on practicing. I just sent off my xbox 360 today. I got those damn 3 red lights and it pains me that I won't be able to play for another month. Only one good thing came out of it though. Since I haven't been able to play for a month now, I have been watching halo 3 videos online. I watched pros go head to head, and i discovered that I want to do that too. When I get my 360 back, serious training will occur. 12-4 AM will become my gaming time as it was in the past. Only this time, its for training to be the best that I can be at this game. I will play until my eyes and hands scream no more. Until all i dream is halo 3. A little obsessive. I know. But I want this. I need this. I will get this.